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Voices broke through to Andy’’s consciousness as he felt himself being roughly placed on his bed.

”Gently!” a familiar voice yelled.

Andy opened his eyes and the panic and fear he”d experienced earlier came crashing down on him again. Feeling a sickening feeling settle at the pit of his stomach, Andy thrashed violently with his arms and legs. In a second strong hands were wrapped around his limbs, effectively pinning Andy to his bed. Tears of fear rolled down Andy’’s cheeks as he heard a well-known voice coo, ”Ssh, Andy. Calm down, eh? We”re not gonna hurt you, love.”

At Alan’’s words a renewed fight entered Andy and he yelled while still trying to free himself from Brewster and Brad-Lee’’s grip.

”What? Just like the other time, Alan? You sick, sick fuck! What is it you want from me? Didn”t you get your fill the last time? I”m spoiled goods, remember?”

The vehemence in his own voice surprised Andy. Every pore in his body was charged with an animalistic strength Andy hadn”t even realised he had.

Brad-Lee had underestimated the strength of Andy’’s tiny frame and increased his grip on Andy’’s thighs and legs. ”Down, tiger!” Brad-Lee yelled.

Alan sighed and flopped down next to Andy. He waited until Andy locked gazes with him before he spoke.

”Honey, if I tell them to let you go, you”ll be calm, right?”

Andy considered the weight of the two men on top of his body and thought of Jason and Brian probably waiting for him downstairs if he tried to make a move, and all the fight left his body. Visibly relaxing his body Andy nodded his head mutely. Alan signaled to Brewster and Brad-Lee and they reluctantly got off of Andy.

Looking Andy dead in the eye Brewster said warningly, ”We”ll be right outside, Al.” Alan nodded absent-mindedly as Brewster and Jason walked from the room, keeping the door slightly ajar. Alan’’s eyes were fixed on Andy’’s face. Silent tears were falling down his face as Andy turned to look at Alan.

”I know you must hate me, Andy. And you”ve got every right,” Alan said softly.

Andy didn”t reply he just kept staring at the look of guilt on Alan’’s face through his tears. After a moment Alan continued, ”I love you, Andy. I don”t know why or how, but God knows I love you so, so much.”

The silent tears that were running down Andy’’s face were turning in to sobs. Alan wiped at Andy’’s cheeks as he pleaded for him to stop crying.

Andy looked small and devastatingly vulnerable as he said, ”Alan, you are not well. You said you loved me the last time you saw me, but you let them hurt me, really hurt me.”

Alan looked away from Andy’’s gaze, and said, ”Yea, well. I”m sorry about that, Andy. I won”t let any of them come near you like that again. I swear!”

”It doesn”t matter, Alan! The damage is already done!” Andy sat up quickly and pushed his left breast in Alan’’s face. ”Look at me, Alan! Look at what you did to me. What was it you said, “Now every person who decided to fuck me will know what a cheap dirty slut I am.” Wasn”t that what you told me after you left your mark on my body?”

Alan leapt on Andy then, crushing him under his weight. Grabbing Andy around the shoulders he shook violently as he yelled, ”I said I was sorry, didn”t I? I said I was sorry, Andy! What more do you want?”

”For you and your bitches to drop dead!” Andy yelled through a flood of tears. A loud smack reverberated across the room as Brewster and Brad-Lee burst in to the room. Andy held his swollen, tear damped cheek as Alan lowered over him, ready to lash out further at him at any moment.

”I love you Andy, more than you could ever know. But I WILL NOT be spoken to in that way.” Alan tried to be dominant with his body towering over Andy. ”In time, Andy, you”ll come to realize that you care for me too. And you”ll see that I”m good for you and that we belong together.”

”You”re fucked up, Alan,” Andy breathed.

Alan’’s eyes hardened then and he got off Andy and stood next to the bed, looking down at him as he said, ”Get dressed, Andrew. And pack your bags. Don”t forget anything, as we won”t be coming back here again.”

Andy’’s chest closed in on itself as realization dawned on him then. They were going to take him away from Jake and Bill, from Julie and his job and Nora and the home he”d found here with them. Andy felt like his world was crumbling in around him as he looked pleadingly at Alan.

”Alan, please. Don”t do this! I swear I won”t tell anyone what happened. I won”t even tell anyone about today. Oh god, please, don”t take me away from my family. I am begging you with everything in me, Alan, please.” Andy was crying tears of fear and desperation as Alan sat back down on the bed before him. Alan enveloped Andy’’s sobbing frame in his arms and rubbed his back gently. Andy just sat there, unresisting to Alan’’s ministrations. Alan gently pulled back and cupped Andy’’s face in his palm, bringing his eyes to meet his.

”I”m all you need Andy. We”ll be each other’’s family from now on. You won”t ever need for anything in your life, and you”ll have all the love you can handle. We”ll start our own family someday, and we”ll be happy together. I promise you that, my love.”

Andy sobbed defeatedly at Alan’’s words. Getting up from the bed, Alan said in an authoritarian tone, ”Let’’s get you dressed and packed first, and we”ll discuss all the details later. We don”t have a lot of time before those nosy faggots get back, so we have to hurry Andy.”

”Don”t talk about my family like that,” Andy sobbed.

”I”m your family now, Andy.”

Andy shook his head in denial. ”You”re sick! They”ll know something’’s up. They”ll never believe I just upped and left, and they”ll come looking for me and won”t stop ”til they find me.”

”I thought about that, my love. And I also knew you”d need some encouragement until you came to realize your true feelings for me and see this is best for you. You are going to write a letter to the nice doctor and his bitch thanking them for their hospitality and care, but you need to fight your own way in this world. And you”re gonna make it believable, too.”

Andy looked at Alan and shook his determinedly, ”I won”t do that.”

”You will, Andy, if you care as much about Jake and Bill as you say you do. If you won”t write that letter, we”ll burn this house down and make it seem like you burned to death along with it. I personally like the first option better, bit less dramatic, see?” Alan asked rhetorically.

Tears were rolling down Andy’’s face again as he thought about Jake and Bill’’s losing their beautiful home, and he”d be gone just the same. Sighing resignedly through his tears Andy got up off the bed, clutching the towel around his waist like a shield. Turning his head to Alan he motioned with his head to Brewster and Brad-Lee standing at the door.

”You mind telling your goons to piss off and give me some privacy?” ”It don”t really matter, Princess. It’’s not like there’’s anything we haven”t seen.”

”Or tasted,” Brad-Lee added, eliciting a chuckle from Brewster.

Andy felt his face redden with humiliation and looked down at the carpet. Alan spun on them then and was pushing them out the door in a second. Closing the door he turned to Andy, an apologetic look on his face.

”You understand why I can”t leave you completely alone at the moment, don”t you? And don”t mind them too much,” Alan motioned to the closed door, ”they know their place. And as soon as you come to realize, Andy, that yours is by my side, we can ditch them all and start our lives together. But for now,” Alan walked up to Andy, standing close enough for Andy to feel Alan’’s breath on his bare neck, ”I need the added reassurance.”

Lingering in front of him a few seconds longer, Andy felt Alan’’s hands encircle his waist. He felt Alan’’s thumbs hook in to the towel and his body tensed.

”W…what are you doing, Alan?” Andy stammered.

Alan looked in to Andy’’s nervous eyes and smiled reassuringly. Unhooking the towel around Andy’’s hips, he stopped Andy’’s efforts at trying to catch the falling towel. Bending down to nuzzle on Andy’’s neck, Alan whispered in a smooth voice, ”Don”t worry, Love. There”ll be lots of time for that later.”

Andy felt Alan’’s erection press against his naked thigh.

”But for now we”ve got to get you dressed and packed and ready to hit the road. We”ve still got to sort out the letter, too.”

Andy silently stepped out of the towel and moved over to the dresser. Soft whimpers of despair accompanied his actions as he dressed himself.

”Hey Al, how long you still gonna be, man? It’’s getting late,” Jason said.

Alan could hear the panic in his friend’’s voice as he said to him, ”Just continue with keeping a look out. We”ve only got to do the letter that will make the two faggots believe that Andy left here willingly. It can”t be rushed, so quit bothering us!” Alan slammed the door in an agitated looking Jason’’s face. Turning back to the room, his eyes fell on a desolate looking Andy scrunched up in a corner of the bed. The suitcases were packed and ready to be loaded to the van. All personal effects of Andy’’s were packed in these two cases. Moving over to Andy Alan produced a small notepad and pen, holding it out to Andy’’s reach. When Andy made no move to take the articles Alan sighed and flopped down on the bed in front of him. Placing the pad and pen in Andy’’s lap, he said, ”It’’s time, Andy.”

Andy didn”t look up at Alan as he said, ”Please, Alan. Please. It isn”t too late. I swear I won”t tell anybody if you”d just leave now. Don”t make me do this. Bill and Jake love me, and I love them. I”m happy here. Really happy. Don”t take me away from my family, Alan, please.”

Alan sighed, and then looked down condescendingly at Andy and said, ”Baby, we”ve been through this. I am your family. I love you. And in time you will come to love me, too. I know it. Now enough with this Bill and Jake business. Write!” Alan ordered.

Fresh tears pooling at his eyes again, Andy picked up the pad and pen then hesitated, unsure as to how to start.

”What must I say?” Andy asked shakily. Alan gave a self-satisfied grin as he saw the defeated submissiveness in Andy’’s body. This was going to work out fine, Alan thought to himself.

”This has to be the saddest kidnapping ever to have taken place in my lifetime,” Jason told a stone-faced Brian.

”Tell me about it,” Brad-Lee chimed in, ”he’’s treating Martin like royalty instead of the cumbag-whore he is.”

Brewster picked up one of the suitcases and moved to the door of the room, Jason, Brad-Lee and Brian following.

”It’’s only for a while, guys. Al will soon tire of Martin as soon as he’’s dropped a few loads in him. Who knows,” Brewster said conspiratorially, stepping in to the hallway but lowering his voice as he noticed Alan and Andy standing at the top of the stairs, ”he might even let us have a go at his leftovers again.” Everyone in the group except Brian broke out in laughter as they joined Alan and Andy.

”We”re going or what?” Brewster asked a very pleased looking Alan.

Alan slipped his arm possessively around Andy’’s waist as they descended the stairs. Taking the letter from Andy’’s sweaty grip, he placed it prominently on the table in the foyer before leading the way to the van. Nobody had noticed the crumpled piece of paper left on Andy’’s bed.

Alan settled next to Andy in the van. Andy looked around him in a detached manner. Memories of that night threatened to take over his mind. He closed his eyes and tried to imagine himself anywhere else than where he was as Alan pulled him in to him, cradling Andy’’s head in the hollow of his neck. Opening his eyes the raw lust he saw in Jason’’s eyes took his breath away. As they drove out of the driveway of his former home, Andy only hoped Alan kept his promise of keeping them away from him. He had no doubt in his mind that they”d rip him to pieces given half the chance.

Jason noticed Andy taking in his surroundings. He and Brewster sat opposite Andy and Alan, Andy wedged between Alan and the window. Brian was riding shotgun with Brad-Lee behind the wheel.

”It’’s useless to even think it Martin. We”ve got the safety lock on this time. That door can only be opened from the outside. So don”t even try anything.” Andy glared at a smug looking Jason.

”That’’s right, Princess. We came prepared for you this time,” Brewster added, rolling a baseball bat between his ankle and the floor threateningly. Andy closed his eyes and tuned out their voices. If nothing else he could ignore them unless forced to interact with them in some way. Andy kept on thinking of how devastated Bill and Jake were going to be when they discovered the letter Alan had forced him to write. Alan had read and reread the letter a million times so the possibility of slipping in a clue somewhere had been impossible. Andy only hoped they wouldn”t hate him, but continue to love and never forget him. The exhaustion and stress of the morning laid heavily on Andy’’s still weak system, and he started to drift in to an uneasy slumber.

Andy stirred an unknown time later, but they were still driving.

”Hey there, sleepyhead,” Alan crooned and planted a light kiss on Andy’’s temple. Andy realized he was nuzzled in to Alan’’s frame, and wanted to disentangle himself from Alan’’s intimate embrace at once, but Alan held on to his shoulders keeping him pinned to him.

”God you look so beautiful when you sleep, Andy. Like a real angel.”

Andy swallowed down the bile that threatened to rise in his throat at the thought of any of them seeing him in such a vulnerable state. Andy decided to ignore Alan’’s statement and instead whispered, ”Where are we going?”

”The cabin, for the night,” Alan half whispered, then continued, ”We”re leaving for the airport in the morning where my dad’’s plane will be waiting for us.”

”Where are you taking me, Alan?” Andy asked, a panicky edge creeping in to his voice. Alan seemed to be oblivious to it.

”Ah, honey, that’’s the surprise, you see. You”ll have to wait and see. But I promise you this, Andy, once we get on that plane we effectively cease to exist. No one will ever be able to track us down and find us, not where we”re going.”

Andy hadn”t given much thought to what would happen to him in the long term, but anxiety raked his body at the thought of disappearing into the world with Alan.

”Sleep now, Love, and don”t fret any more. We”re nearly there. Not long now,” Alan said as he pressed Andy’’s head back in the hollow of his shoulder. Andy closed his eyes and tried to calm his breathing.

Dusk had fallen as Brad-Lee pulled up in front of the walkway to the cabin.

”C”mon, stud. We”re here,” Alan jested lightly as he pulled Andy gently from his forced lean in position. Andy straightened himself and stared out the window as Brewster and Jason jumped from the van taking all of their overnight bags. As Alan helped Andy from the van, Brad-Lee and Jason were horsing around, Brewster busting their chops about something. Andy could sense a kind of excitement in the air, as if they were all leaving for holiday in the morning. As they stepped into the cabin with Alan’’s arm proprietarily draped around Andy’’s frame, the sight of the cabin brought everything crashing down. As images of that night came flooding back, Andy felt like a ton of lead was pressing own on his chest. He buckled over and started breathing heavily. The last thing Andy remembered were strong arms lifting him before blackness overtook him.

Andy woke surrounded by soft pillows and comfortable bedding. His frame tensed as he felt movement to his side. Andy turned his head expecting to see Alan at the foot of the bed. Instead he was met with warm eyes and a sad, sincere smiling Brian. Andy swallowed audibly and looked away.

”How you feeling, Andrew?” Brian’’s voice was just above a whisper as he said it. Refusing still to make eye contact, Andy gave an indifferent shrug.

”Andrew, it’’s not-”

Andy heard a door opening somewhere and saw Brian’’s head whip around. He heard Alan’’s alpha voice come closer and noticed the tensing in Brian’’s shoulders.

”He awake? Why didn”t you say anything?”

”He just stirred, Alan-”

”Move!” came Alan’’s impatient demand. Brian shot Andy an apologetic look then stepped away.

”Andy, darling. You gave us a fright. Are you ok?”

Andy sighed at the concern in Alan’’s voice and instead of answering, he said in a formal tone, ”May I have some water.”

Alan stared at Andy a moment before he said, ”Of course, love. Anything.” Alan got up from beside Andy and quickly returned with bottled water, uncapping it and holding it to Andy’’s mouth while gingerly letting the smaller man take small sips. Placing the bottle on the nightstand Alan settled himself next to Andy and slid his arms behind Andy’’s shoulders, drawing him in to him. Alan was whispering endearments to him, all the while steadily rubbing up and down Andy’’s side. Andy felt sickened by Alan’’s intimate gestures, but tried not to concentrate on the intimidating body dominating his own as they lay on the bed, nuzzled in to each other as any two lovers would be.

Brian was sitting in front of the fire trying to keep his face indifferent as he sipped at his chocolate while listening to Brad-Lee telling them what exactly he”d do to Andy the second he got the chance. The more graphic Brad-Lee became, the more responsive his audience got. All except for Brian, who just kept sipping his drink and keeping his face neutral.

”Honey, we”re home!” Jake and Bill yelled in unison as they stepped through the front door. Being met by silence, Jake said, ”Andy? Where you at? We”ve got a surprise for you.”

Still not having received any reply, Bill said to Jake, ”He’’s probably upstairs having a lie down. I”ll go have a look.”

Jake nodded as he put down the shopping and stepped over to the foyer table to sift through the day’’s mail. Picking up an envelope with the words ”Bill & Jake” written in what looked like Andy’’s handwriting, Jake had to remind himself to breathe as he sat down and tore the envelope open. Producing a single sheet of paper, Jake’’s heart stopped beating for a moment as he started reading. “Dear Bill and Jake, my family. How to start? It isn”t easy for me, but I imagine it will be much, much harder for you to read it later on.” Jake swallowed past the tears that were threatening to spill over at any moment. “So much has happened since I came to live in this town. I”ve grown in ways I never imagined, and met some wonderful people in my time here. But a sad realization I have come to is; I am alone in this world. Perhaps that is what was meant for me in this life. Either way, I know I cannot keep on living here, with you. Too much water under the bridge and all, as they say. But, please know that I love the both of you, so very much…” Jake’’s tears were flowing freely now, “…and perhaps I”ll return someday to greet you in happier times. But for now I say goodbye. I wish you hope and happiness, and I hope you”ll always remember me. God knows I”ll never forget you. Goodbye, my family. Yours forever, Andy.” Jake had been silently sobbing for a while when Bill’’s panicked and confused voice made it back to the hallway. ”Baby, all of Andy’’s things are gone. All his clothes and books and-” Bill stopped dead in his tracks when he saw Jake’’s state as he entered the foyer. In a split second Bill was by his mate’’s side, gently cradling his shaking form. Taking the letter from a sobbing Jake, Bill’’s eyes teared up as he read through the letter. Bill let the letter fall to the ground as he crushed Jake’’s body to his, sobs racking both their bodies.

The affectionate and mildly intimate gestures from Alan had slowly turned to more intense, lingering caresses. Alan had been nuzzling on Andy’’s earlobe for the past minute or so while his free hand had traveled from Andy’’s chest to under the covers just above his waistline. Andy concentrated on keeping his breathing level to still the tears that threatened to spill over at any moment.